The negative thoughts came out of nowhere. No warning or sign. It’s like I was walking down the aisle at the grocery store, distracted and looking the other way and then BAM I turned around to collide with an ex boyfriend I shared a bad break up with and a regrettable part of my past. … Continue reading Clean Up in Aisle 6: When Depression Knocks You Down
The boldness of others has caused some of my greatest personal growth. I was blessed to live in a community last year where the opportunity for feedback was frequent. I had many friends who would confront me in love. One growth moment in particular came on a day when I was stuck in a negative … Continue reading Shut Up Before You Kill Someone: Choosing to Speak Life not Death
For a big portion of my life, I was dishonest to both myself and to others. I was so focused on shoving any negative emotions down that I never allowed myself to truly feel pain. The pain of death, the pain of divorced parents, the pain of practically any life experience that hurt – I … Continue reading Freedom through Pain
A few years ago, my friend Brendan told me that he could always tell what was going on in my life at any time based on the state of my hair. I sat on the edge of his bed while he sat on the edge of his desk chair, some friend from film class filling the … Continue reading A Love Letter to the Control Freaks: It’s Okay to Let Go
I have an older sister, she’s great and we are really good friends, but it wasn’t always that way. We’re less than a year apart, so growing up we fought A LOT, and we weren’t above physical altercations. One time, when we were both teenagers, we were driving to our dad’s house on a cold, … Continue reading If This Nation is Ever to Unite, We Must Understand One Another’s Pain.
I’ve been putting off this blog for quite a while, because no one in their right mind wants to admit that they’re lonely. Being lonely feels like the ultimate shame. Loneliness feels pathetic. Even that dorky kid has his dorky friends to hang out with, and yet I’m here playing solitaire in my sweat pants on … Continue reading Loneliness: The Ultimate Shame
Proverbs 25:28 “A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls.” Ever since I was a small child, I’ve struggled with the sins of lust and masturbation. But until recently, I didn’t realize how deep those sins were rooted. Five months ago, I was exactly what Proverbs 25:28 talks about … Continue reading God Confronted My Struggle With Lust and Masturbation
Lorde’s hit song, Tennis Court, contains a lyric that captivates me. “It’s a new art form, showing people how little we care.” Part of me wonders if she wrote that after scrolling through her Facebook newsfeed on a midweek afternoon. She probably didn’t. But that lyric perfectly illustrates one ugly, uncomfortable truth: you and I … Continue reading Hey Christians, I’ve Got a Bone to Pick with Your Facebook Rants
Are disciples even real? They seem illusive. People you talk about but don’t really see. Kind of like a magician that does something amazing right before throwing down a cloud of smoke and disappearing. I’ve head the word “discipleship” thrown around, but all I see are two people getting coffee while one talks about her problems. It … Continue reading Are Disciples Even Real?
“I’m just really mad at writing right now,” I tensely laughed into the phone. “But I”ll get over it and most likely write about it.” “Have you read about J.K. Rowling?” my friend asked. We proceeded to tangent down the road of Harry Potter and friends, eventually turning a corner to return to my … Continue reading Why You Need to Dream Again